The feeling shows up randomly. I could be looking at Instagram photos and notice someone else has more followers than me. I could be about to speak at an event and start thinking people would prefer someone else to speak than me. Or I could be falling asleep and start thinking my friends don’t care about me.
I was feeling that way today. Nothing happened; it’s completely in my head. I know that. It’s the weirdest thing, because I’m about to speak and lead worship at a large youth conference this weekend...and I still feel forgotten.
When the feeling came just now, I paused in my heart and asked, “God, what is this about? Why do I feel this way over and over?”
I realized: It’s my version of the waves Peter sank in: Looking away from Him and comparing myself to others. For me, comparison is the equivalent of Peter’s waves.
The most beautiful thing is, every time I feel forgotten, I heard the Lord’s voice saying:
“But I have not forgotten you.”
That simple phrase calms my heart, because I suddenly look up again. I look to Him, instead of at the waves. And my heart is still, full in Him.